What in the world... I some how want to know more of this experience..
I was invited to a ceremony. I knew going in peyote wasn't exactly a recreational hallucinogen like your traditional lsd or fun-gus but I had no idea
Apparently I'm a big puker, threw up constantly first couple hours. I felt so bad too, everytime I yacked this poor lady would enter the hogan with a little sweep and pan you'd use to clean the ashes out of your fire place, and she'd clean up my mess
Didn't really hallucinate with my eyes open, but when I closed them I was definitely in a different world and I was not alone.
Then it started happening. I remembered everything bad I had ever done, every person I had wronged, a lot of it I had completely forgotten. And I just beat myself up over it all. Lots of crying. Couldn't stay still. Thought it would be never end. I was the biggest POS in the world. Brutal.
But finally just before the sun came up I had a break through and realized I had a lot of living left to do, and that I could choose which person I wanted to be. Changed my life big time
I don't think I'll ever do peyote again, kinda got what I needed from it, but now when I eat too many mushrooms I go right back to that mental space and end up evaluating everything I've been up to and all the company I keep. It sucks sometimes, but at the same time I find it very therapeutic and beneficial