I don't think you needed to. I'm competitive too, but there are certain things that are more important to me, like following rules and maintaining a sense of personal integrity. I'm competitive only within those limits. That means that, when push comes to shove, I will lose to someone who can match my talent level (whatever arena we are talking about) and dedication, and who will exceed my willingness to go beyond that.
Everyone used to talk about how competitive Michael Jordan was. It was celebrated as one of his strengths. But in fact, in his case, it meant he was willing to cheat to win. On the NBA court, it's not cheating if you get away with it. But one hush-hush report after another exposed Jordan as a cheater in pick-up games, cards, golf, you name it. Okay, so that's "competitive." We can say that it weakens Jordan's legacy, but the fact is that he probably would not have been as successful without having a drive to win that surpassed his drive to be honest or fair.